Have you remember that when you were little, you believe in anything that anyone was telling you? Like your older brothers/sisters told you that actually you are not a legitimate daughter of your parents, that you were adopted, and you believed it? Today, I was fooled a few times. Someone said something to me, but I thought it was really true, but afterward they were just joking around. But I really thought what he said was really true. I found out that I'm pretty gullible, but I guess I could also call it innocence.
Going back when we were a little kid, we were innocent and our heart was pure as a stainless white paper. But as time goes on, we realized that the world is not as simple as it seems anymore. Our innocence begins to fade and as we realized that people and the world around us gets more complicated, we became more complicated as well. As a little kid, we would show our surfaced side to others, while as we get older, we tend to hide part of ourselves. The more complications, the less happy that we get. I envy little kids, because their lives are full of laughter. They have little/no worries, and they truly enjoy any fun part of their lives, even just a simple piece of things they can get. I guess because it comes from innocence.
Though at first I thought I was foolish being fooled today, but in another good way, I could also say that I've gained back some innocence in me. But also maybe I've always have that innocence, and I realized that I still it today. And maybe also everyone, even though their lives might be complicated, deep down, they still have some innocence in their heart.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Marriage trend?
Everybody's getting married this year! Have you ever thought that there is same thing happen to different people at the same time? Like everyone's pregnant at the same time? What I mean is I know a lot of people are getting married this year. Of course it is good news, and I'm happy for them.
Since graduation, I have been "resting". Even though I have graduated, but it doesn't seem that way. I guess because I will go back to school in the Fall anyway to continue with my studies. I hope it wont be much difficult than undergrad courses. In the beginning of "vacation", I felt some kind of "emptiness" inside. Not 空虛感, but it's like a huge part of my school life is remove from my life, and waiting for another stage to begin. I guess I needed sometime to adapt to it. But I've been enjoying my freely planned June. Besides staying home with my grandma, I've been joining the college pursuing team with B/S. It's great to DNTG and have Bible Studies about Abraham's life and Galatians, and their connections between each other, and also how they connect to our daily lives. Even though it has just ended today, but I really hope to continue reading the Bible and understands the words of God. : )
Can't believe time flies. July is few days away, and I have to prepare for Summer Day Camp. This year I'll be teaching 4th graders. I hope this year will be even more exciting and memorable. Hopefully I would not slack off, and really get myself together to be prepared.
There are few goals that I really hope to accomplish this summer, I hope I could really achieve them...
1)
Since graduation, I have been "resting". Even though I have graduated, but it doesn't seem that way. I guess because I will go back to school in the Fall anyway to continue with my studies. I hope it wont be much difficult than undergrad courses. In the beginning of "vacation", I felt some kind of "emptiness" inside. Not 空虛感, but it's like a huge part of my school life is remove from my life, and waiting for another stage to begin. I guess I needed sometime to adapt to it. But I've been enjoying my freely planned June. Besides staying home with my grandma, I've been joining the college pursuing team with B/S. It's great to DNTG and have Bible Studies about Abraham's life and Galatians, and their connections between each other, and also how they connect to our daily lives. Even though it has just ended today, but I really hope to continue reading the Bible and understands the words of God. : )
Can't believe time flies. July is few days away, and I have to prepare for Summer Day Camp. This year I'll be teaching 4th graders. I hope this year will be even more exciting and memorable. Hopefully I would not slack off, and really get myself together to be prepared.
There are few goals that I really hope to accomplish this summer, I hope I could really achieve them...
1)
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Shopping Hazard
Today there was a big sale for one of the most popular brand. Since I was going to the same building to check out something, I have decided to go and see if I could find a small backpack. I've waited patiently in line (Which went pretty fast), took the elevator, got my bag checked in and ready to step into what it looked like a "battlefield" (Just exaggerating). There I saw crowded exciting shoppers fumbled at the bags which laid out on the table , with prices marked off by half. As I became one of those exciting people, my adrenaline began to rise. I wanted to call my friends and people to see if they were interested as well. If not that they might 走雞.
After I have found what I was looking for (Finally, a backpack I wanted), I didn't give up searching for other merchandises. I looked at all the colors, the styles, the marked off prices, my hearts skipped few beats. Like other enthusiastic shoppers, I kept fumbling the bags from different tables and kept thinking of reasons why I should get them. I asked myself, "should I get them?", "should I get them?", but a voice kept repeated back saying. "No, don't get it", "no don't get it". I felt my blood pressure rising.
As a walked back and forth among the crowds of excited shoppers, I stopped to look around, seeing others carrying dozens of bags at once, with different colors and different size, I wondered to myself. "What am I doing?" I looked at my watch. It was way past the time that I had to do something which I'd planned to do, and something important. But I'd bargained my time by giving it to what it was a quick pleasure of "bargain collection" for bags. With courage (Yes, it took a lot of courage), I put down the bags that were hanging all over me, and decided to walk out of the door, walked past the excited shoppers, and leave all the "bargain" behind. I have decided to "clear my mind" and rethink if they are what I need.
You would think I'd regret it afterward. Surprisingly, I felt the opposite. I felt my blood pressure, and my heart's intensity calmed down as I walked down the street. At first, of course, I wasn't too willing to leave all my "bargain" behind, but realizing that I had something more important to do, I left the place, went to the library, and focused on my study.
The story hasn't ended yet. After studying, I wanted to go back to the place again. This time, I wasn't jeopardizing my time in doing other important things for this seemingly "now-or-time" bargaining spree, but I have thought about what I just needed to get, without being greedy. At the end, I got a backpack, which I needed, and something else for others. Most importantly, my heart's at peace. : )
Today I'd learned an important lesson, which is not to bargain our way to short term temptations and satisfactions. I realized that sometimes the things that we buy, might not be the things that we necessary need. I wonder how many of those exciting shoppers who purchased more than five bags would use each bag more than 10 times, before they have their attentions to other brands and sales. Learning how to spend wisely, it's a virtue, and a good habit. I want to set my goal, to only buy the things I need, not the things I don't necessary need, but for temporary pride, pleasures, and satisfaction.
After I have found what I was looking for (Finally, a backpack I wanted), I didn't give up searching for other merchandises. I looked at all the colors, the styles, the marked off prices, my hearts skipped few beats. Like other enthusiastic shoppers, I kept fumbling the bags from different tables and kept thinking of reasons why I should get them. I asked myself, "should I get them?", "should I get them?", but a voice kept repeated back saying. "No, don't get it", "no don't get it". I felt my blood pressure rising.
As a walked back and forth among the crowds of excited shoppers, I stopped to look around, seeing others carrying dozens of bags at once, with different colors and different size, I wondered to myself. "What am I doing?" I looked at my watch. It was way past the time that I had to do something which I'd planned to do, and something important. But I'd bargained my time by giving it to what it was a quick pleasure of "bargain collection" for bags. With courage (Yes, it took a lot of courage), I put down the bags that were hanging all over me, and decided to walk out of the door, walked past the excited shoppers, and leave all the "bargain" behind. I have decided to "clear my mind" and rethink if they are what I need.
You would think I'd regret it afterward. Surprisingly, I felt the opposite. I felt my blood pressure, and my heart's intensity calmed down as I walked down the street. At first, of course, I wasn't too willing to leave all my "bargain" behind, but realizing that I had something more important to do, I left the place, went to the library, and focused on my study.
The story hasn't ended yet. After studying, I wanted to go back to the place again. This time, I wasn't jeopardizing my time in doing other important things for this seemingly "now-or-time" bargaining spree, but I have thought about what I just needed to get, without being greedy. At the end, I got a backpack, which I needed, and something else for others. Most importantly, my heart's at peace. : )
Today I'd learned an important lesson, which is not to bargain our way to short term temptations and satisfactions. I realized that sometimes the things that we buy, might not be the things that we necessary need. I wonder how many of those exciting shoppers who purchased more than five bags would use each bag more than 10 times, before they have their attentions to other brands and sales. Learning how to spend wisely, it's a virtue, and a good habit. I want to set my goal, to only buy the things I need, not the things I don't necessary need, but for temporary pride, pleasures, and satisfaction.
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